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Oh, Florida.

Yesterday morning life hit us like a searing laser of Utah sun at 4:30 AM when Coco began howling wildly to be let out of her crate. We were still high from the smell of salt and sea, our bellies still full of fried everything, our minds still as calm as the line of the horizon over the ocean, so it was a bit of a jolt. An unwelcome jolt. A knife to the eye. A kick in the shin. And before I retrieved that dog from her crate I said aloud something Leta had cried out as I put her to bed the night before: "Why can't every day be Florida?"

Turns out there was nothing wrong with Coco, and she didn't even have to empty her bladder. In fact, I think she was expecting some sort of celebration to be waiting for her on the outside of her crate. Her bat mitzvah, perhaps. Where were the balloons? The finger food? The Journey cover band? On and off the bed she jumped, her wet snout in and out of our ears. I let her outside to release her energy, but she stood outside and barked at the door. This went on for two hours. And just as she was about to settle down Leta woke up. OF COURSE LETA WOKE UP. You saw that coming before I even said it, didn't you? It is a special rule of logic that only applies to parents: if a) you have a child then b) that kid will wake up just as you are falling back to sleep unless c) they are staying with Grandmommy. And if c) is true then you will have stuffed that kid with coffee and chocolate right up until you said, "Be good! See you tomorrow!" Because d) it's the only way to get back at your mother for introducing your kid to Barney.

This morning Coco slept in until 6:00 AM, except when Jon let her out of her crate she was covered in diarrhea. He could smell it, but because Jon cannot see without the aid of an astro telescope, he did not notice her tracking it through our bedroom, down the hallway where we discovered poo all over the wall, and out the back door. I followed her outside where she hunched over, grimaced, and puked for over 20 minutes. I then spent the next hour bathing her while Jon cleaned up the crate and the fragrant, candied path through our bedroom. When Leta woke up and saw the handful of wet spots where Jon had scrubbed the floor with Nature's Miracle, she put both arms on her hips, glared disappointedly down the hallway and asked, "Did that dog pee a lot of times?"

I said, no, that's not pee, but she ignored me, counted each wet spot and informed me, "Eleven. She peed eleven times." Thank, you, Leta for gathering such detailed data, although I'm not going to be impressed until you've shown me some charts.

Jon is currently in bed with a sinus infection (yes, I know, neti pot, he uses one routinely, we think there is a bigger problem), and it's taken me a few days to catch up with everything that needs to be done when a family returns from a long vacation. Things like having to walk around the pile of laundry, all the energy burned from having to step over the suitcase that still needs to be unpacked. My friend, Cami, took care of our house, fed Lou, and watered all of my plants while we were away, and she said yesterday that the first time she walked into our house it looked like a bulldozer had dumped a landfill in our living room. And I was all, Cami, we were lucky to make it out of the house without killing each other, and even then we almost missed our plane. So if you're surprised that I would leave my house in such a condition then you can't be upset when I tell you to suck it.

Yesterday was also the first day of a 21-day diet cleanse that I've decided to do that prohibits me from eating any sugar, gluten, caffeine, alcohol, or animal products. It's the same cleanse that Oprah did, and when I read about how it was making her feel I became intrigued, bought the book that inspired it, Quantum Wellness, and decided immediately it was exactly what I needed in my life. I've been meaning to make some major changes in my life, especially since the recent chaos is only going to get more chaotic, and this book outlines some ideas as to how to take charge of the change I want to make.

I'm posting about it here because I think I'll have more motivation to stick to the cleanse if I post about it publicly, and I plan to say a few words about how I'm feeling every day just to help anyone else who wants to eventually try it. I was certain that giving up caffeine would be the hardest part about this change, but the only thing I craved yesterday was cheese and a bite of Leta's Cocoa Krispies. And even this morning the espresso machine did not tempt me. I'm also thinking that after the 21-day period is over that I may continue to abstain from meat, for many reasons, the main one being that I can no longer justify the barbaric treatment of those animals just so that I can have a hamburger. It's as if I've finally been hit over the head hard enough, and I'm ready to change my life, from what I eat to how I react to Coco being covered in poop to breathing through the fact that yet again we've been jolted awake to a mess.

I want to be a better wife, a more conscious and present mother, a more loyal friend, and a better listener. I'd like to handle my anxiety better. I also want to be more organized because I'm tired and fed up with not being able to find anything. Many times that anything is my head. And starting yesterday I feel like I'm on my way to making every day Florida.

Here goes.

460 comments
  • 1. katie said:

    Can I just cut and paste that last paragraph into my blog? I so totally agree. Except ixnay on the oridaflay and change it to Santa Monica. Curious to see how your clense goes...

  • 2. Rosemary said:

    I hope you do make it through your 21 days. If you can make it, then I will try it too :)

  • 3. Amy said:

    Booking my flight to Florida now... Good luck on the cleanse thing!

  • 4. Jessica M. said:

    Fantastic Heather! Good luck with this challenge. I've heard about the cleansing diet and was interested...so I can't wait to hear about your progress. =)

  • 5. Anonymous said:

    Good luck with all that. You'll be my guinea pig.

  • 6. kristen said:

    i've been wanting to do a cleanse for a while now, can't wait to hear how it goes. hopefully i'll be inspired to follow suit....

  • 7. Meg said:

    Sounds like Florida was just what you needed! Glad you're back in action!

  • 8. Ashley said:

    i would definitely be interesting in hearing how it goes...i've been wondering if i need to make a drastic change in my diet for the sake of my insides and also my anxiety. good luck!

  • 9. Amy said:

    Glad you had such a great vacation! I agree, coming back home is always a rude awakening (even without puppy diarrhea).

    Good luck with the cleanse! I don't think I'd ever try to give up so much all at once, but I look forward to reading your opinion of the experience.

  • 10. Allison said:

    No sugar, gluten, caffeine, alcohol, or animal products.

    What else is there?

    No, seriously. What else is there?

  • 11. Dee Anne Simonton said:

    Fitter. Happier. More productive.

  • 12. Becky said:

    Wow! Good luck with that. I can't wait to read about your journey as I sip my wine while taking breaks to eat my cheeseburger on a big fat white flour bun.

    Signed,
    Fat and Happy In Wisconsin. Sadly not Florida.

    p.s. Leta kills me.

  • 13. Kat said:

    I successfully completed a seven-day cleanse and I wish I had the impulse-control to go longer. It restored my energy levels and curbed sugar cravings.

    If you are uneasy with the treatment of stockyard animals you could try eating organic free-range meat. We have switched entirely. The cost is so prohibitive that we only eat meat a few times per week instead of every night.

  • 14. dot said:

    We're off to the beach next week...then maybe I too shall try the 21 day thing!

  • 15. the almost right word said:

    no alcohol??! you crazy, girl!

  • 16. Mel said:

    Such an inspirational post! That last paragraph can be modified to fit anyone and I think it serves as a challenge for everyone to get their life into a better place. Good luck to all of us :)

  • 17. Spring said:

    I wonder if there could be any way to explain to Leta how truly profound her question is. I'm sitting here at my cubicle wondering _the exact same thing_.

  • 18. Erica said:

    I'm way too weak to 'cleanse'. Oprah, be damned.

  • 19. Jennifer said:

    Good luck Heather! You can do it.
    And so you can laugh, I too have adopted a puppy.

  • 20. Mel said:

    Hey - take charge and just stick it out for the 21 days. I'm sure you'll feel fantastic from the cleanse AND for accomplishing such a big goal. Keep us posted!

  • 21. Trysha said:

    I especially like the last paragraph. I think we are always in a constant flux of change or needing change.

    Whatever you are, be a good one. ~Abe Lincoln

  • 22. JulieBrown said:

    Bravo for attempting to make such fundamental changes in your life, Heather. I'm looking forward to your observations on the process.... and your pithy comments.
    As for Jon's sinus infections: perhaps others have suggested this (I don't usually make it through the hundreds of comments you get) but when I was going through the same thing 20 years ago we discovered that it was a wisdom tooth root that was protruding into the sinus cavity and that had abcessed. Sorry if that was TMI, but once that tooth was pulled I never had another sinus infection [knock wooden head]. For what it's worth.
    Hope the cleanse provides the change you are looking for.

  • 23. Cori said:

    Good Luck with your Florida Life! Don't forget us who are still in crazy land...

  • 24. Laura said:

    Best of luck to you.
    Very inspirational post!

  • 25. june said:

    This is great! The woman who wrote Quantam Wellness is such an inspiration. I'm starting next week - we're going to feel wonderful! Operation MAKEEVERDAYFLORIDA in effect.

  • 26. Jennifer Suarez said:

    Best of luck! How wonderful a thought of every day being Florida.

  • 27. sarah said:

    doing that same cleanse right now. I'm on day 8 and it has not been easy. let me know if you need any support - good luck.

  • 28. ChristinaTE said:

    Coming home from vacation is the hardest part. But man is it so worth it! Good luck with your goals!

  • 29. Swampechaun said:

    Best of Luck... your post is inspiring to me maybe, probably, perhaps do the same thing.

  • 30. Marta (Austin Texas) said:

    Wow, can't wait to hear about this cleanse. I feel the same way about meat. I could totally be a vegetarian if it weren't for brisket, but since I never cook it myself, I rarely eat meat. Good luck with that! I wish you much Florida!

  • 31. Sharon said:

    I can't wait to hear how your cleanse goes ... You are such an inspiration!

  • 32. andrea said:

    Looking forward to the updates on the cleanse. I was almost intrigued enough to do it myself, but then found out I was pregnant and decided to hold off until this kid pops out. There are so few things that sound good to me right now, I don't want to limit it even more.

    Good luck!

  • 33. Sarie said:

    Heather, good luck with all the things on your list. I have to admit, I cringed a little bit at the giving up meat item, because that is just a real pet peeve of mine. I believe that it can be done - we can find meat that hasn't been tortured if we hunt and gather a little harder - but that's just my opinion. The 21-day cleanse sounds good to me - I've done aspects of it, and even just cleansing out the caffeine and alcohol will make a huge difference. Don't get me wrong, I love a good glass of wine (or 4) but sometimes it's really just a great thing to drink, ya know, water for a few days. Good luck.

  • 34. spoiledonlychild said:

    If you're into all this, you must read Oprah's darling Eckhart Tolle. His books A New Earth and the Power of Now will give you a whole new perspective.

    And can I ask, Florida in summer? Wasn't it as hot as the blazes of hell?

  • 35. Carrie said:

    Seriously, have you been reading the Skinny Bitch book? Lots of the stuff you're talking about eliminating is included in what not to eat according to the bitches. Though, they should have called it "Skinny Vegan Bitch", just so you know what you're getting into.
    Good luck. Making it all so public takes balls. . . I know you'll stick with it and reap all of the rewards and benefits you deserve.

  • 36. Sarah said:

    Gosh, that ocean picture is spectacular!

    Does that include seafood too (no animal products)? I hope you can do it, and I'm curious about how you feel about it and what changes you notice in yourself. I'm just not so sure I could give up the Merlot and Corona. Everything else could go though.

    Nothing like a dog to bring you back down to reality! But .. at least she's a CUTE dog!

  • 37. Annie said:

    You're going to feel and look so much better cutting that crap out of your diet. I've been gluten, dairy and refined sugar free for a few months and it makes a HUGE difference! Good luck!

  • 38. Anonymous said:

    Does this have something to do with colonics?

  • 39. Allison said:

    Just read a great book about not eating meat. "Skinny Bitch" by Rory Freedman and Kim Barnouin. Check it out.

  • 40. RuthWells said:

    Cleanse is a funny word.

    Keep us posted.

  • 41. Colly P said:

    Good thing for you for trying the vegetarian route! I went off of meat 3 months ago and I feel great. I think it's actually helped with my anxiety, since there is a theory that when you stop eating the adrenaline spiked bodies of animals (because they are afraid before they are slaughtered) it makes you calmer. Who knows, I just know its been good for me. Good luck!

  • 42. Al said:

    god, coming back from vacation totally sucks. hang on to that vision, don't let it fade!

  • 43. Emily said:

    Seriously. You choose coming back from vacation with a landfill house and liquipoo dog to change your dieting habits? You are nigh unto a god.

    If it works, I may try it. Although, you know, who am I kidding with that.

  • 44. Lisa said:

    Hey, I'm on day 4 of the cleanse myself! I've found that there will come one point in every day that I try to talk myself out of continuing with it (always, always hunger induced). Then I eat a banana and I'm fine again.

    Trying to come up with meals everyday is a struggle. I'm not too keen on vegetables, see... I do feel a sense of calm that hasn't been present before though, and the last month has been really rough, so that's saying a lot for me.

  • 45. Sam said:

    Good luck with the cleansing diet. I've been a vegetarian since I left for college in 1995, and it was the best decision I could have made for my body. I hope it works as well for you.

  • 46. Anonymous said:

    The cookbook "Veganomicon" would be a great resource for you, food-wise.

  • 47. ilttp said:

    LOVING your last paragraph ! Hope you don't mind me copying it in my journal, my Bible,on my hand ???? You are lovely, my friend. Thanks for feeding my thirsty soul.The cleanse ? Please do post~~~~~I am game for it !

  • 48. R Dakin said:

    Good luck with your big changes. In your blog you come across exactly as you say you want to be. Organized, present, and a loving wife and mother. I think as women, we judge ourselves much more harshly than we judge others. No matter how successful you are, be satisfied with yourself. Your house is stunning, you are an amazing writer, and you have a great family. An occasional craving for a burger or a stress-induced melt-down doesn't make you any less worthy of admiration. I personally, would rather hang out with you than Oprah!

  • 49. Catherine said:

    Color me skeptical. I hope it works out for you, but I'm just saying, being an omg better everything is going to take a lot more internal rewiring than just changing your diet for 21 days.

    I do, however, wish you the very best of luck and lots of strength so that you can become the person you want to be! I know how hard it is to realize who you've become is inching away from the person you thought you would be. Here's hoping Florida comes closer every day.

  • 50. Abby said:

    If you find yourself struggling to stick to your 21 day cleanse then just pick up a copy of Fast Food Nation, you'll easily be able to avoid any fast food restaurant for at least a month after completing the book. I can't even look at the deliciously salt McDonald's French fry the same.

    Good luck and I hope you are able to stick to it!

  • 51. Shannon said:

    My mom would be so proud of me for throwing this out there because since she was diagnosed with celiac disease (intolerance to gluten) she has been trying to diagnose the world. Frequent sinus infections are a symptom of celiac disease. Maybe John should try the cleanse diet too if he isn't. Good luck with everything Heather. You're amazing and an inspiration. Also, I hope Coco feels better soon!

  • 52. Stacy said:

    Hey Heather,
    Good luck with the meat thing...I went vegetarian last year for both personal health and animal rights reasons. A lovely side effect was that I stopped having such horrible cramps during 'that time of the month'. I am now convinced that the cramps were due to all those hormones in the meat I was eating.

    I think the most difficult problem I have now with not eating meat is when my husband cooks bacon. Other than that, I don't really miss it. Oh, but that smell of bacon KILLS me every time!!

  • 53. April said:

    If you want another reason to abstain from meat, check out Fast Food Nation by Eric Schlosser. I just finished re-reading it last night. The treatment of people by the meat packing industry is worse than the animals - especially ranchers and slaughterhouse workers.

    Good luck on your cleanse!

    April

  • 54. Erika said:

    I was trying to give up meat for nine days but I only made it to day three. I plan to give it another try. I will keep track of your progress. And if you find anything that tastes just like fried chicken, but isn't, please let us know!

  • 55. Kate said:

    I've had a rough week (ok, life), but your words never fail me.

    Don't ever stop being Dooce. Or Heather Armstrong.

  • 56. carla said:

    The "cleanse" thing is a good start, but why not go a bit further and educate yourself about food and nutrition? You can incorporate good meat (organic, free range, etc) into your diet, and people don't need a ton of meat (most people eat a lot more meat than they need) to be really healthy, but a bit really helps keep your body fed. The key is understanding what you really truly need and incorporating it into your daily life.

    Learning about your food is like learning about your money. So worth it. I did it and it changed everything. I haven't purchased a low fat or non fat item in 3 years, and have a much better sense of portion and timing. I don't worry about periodic fried food festivals, because I know that the rest of my eating makes up for it.

    Nutritionists are as valuable as any other heathcare professional.

  • 57. Mary Ann said:

    I'm so absolutely enchanted with the sea photograph that illustrates this entry, that I can hardly get through a paragraph before I go back to it again. I live on the northern west coast (Washington State)and haven't seen a sea photograph this inspiring for some time. So, so affecting. Is there any chance you may be able to offer prints for sale? Thank you so much for sharing!

  • 58. [michele] said:

    Welcome home! Why can't every day be Florida, indeed. (Well, if it was like that stunning photo above, and had nothing to do with humidity, bugs or old people.)

    LOVED the guest columnists - thanks to them for the content!

    I *think* I want to hear your take on the cleanse. I think.

  • 59. Jen said:

    Good luck! I wish you much success on your journey.

  • 60. Krysta said:

    Good luck with the cleanse! I recently went meat free and feel great.

  • 61. The Lisa Show said:

    Good luck with that, Heather. I'd be an animal rights activist but for the love of god and all things holy, I just can't give up my meat. I fight for dogs, cats, rabbits, dolphins, and even rats. But if you say cow, I say get in my belly.

  • 62. Ulla Lauridsen said:

    Take it easy, now, and be good to yourself :-) Maybe your life isn't that easy, and maybe you're doing the best you can.
    And please remember, you do need proteine, however you'll get it.

  • 63. zeghsy said:

    good luck. i'd like to find the things that live in my house as well. by the time i'm done at work and done at the studio, i have no energy left for the house. sadly it looks just like that. i hate being there as result.

  • 64. Kim said:

    Yowza. Nothin' left but leaves to eat. Good luck.

  • 65. Rachel in SC said:

    Best of luck with the cleanse. Sounds interesting.

  • 66. William said:

    I lived in Florida for two years and It did not have that effect on me.

    Does the cleanse include No drinking of Alcohol? Good luck

  • 67. Jennifer said:

    I'd kill for a Journey cover band to play a theme song as I live everyday life.

    So I totally stole your line about Florida being America's Stretch Mark and referenced it while on a packed flight to San Francisco, wherein the guy next to me overheard my conversation, burst out laughing and proceeded to apologize for listening in on my conversation (not a problem, I was three sheets to the wind, thanks to the Airport Bar and a strong martini) and told me he would use it when talking to an associate from Florida.
    Yeah.

    P.S. Longest, Sentence, EVER.

  • 68. Clairy said:

    I think your cleanse is a wonderful idea and maybe complimenting it with some yoga (if you have time!) would be an excellent way to become grounded?

    Best wishes & I'm excited to read about your experiences!

  • 69. mtnd said:

    Good Luck to You. But why do people listen to Oprah?

  • 70. Laura said:

    I rarely get in here before the comments reach epic numbers, so this is a treat for me.

    I'll be following your cleanse with interest. There's no way in hell I'd be able to function without cheese and bread and pretzels and coffee. . .especially not the coffee. . .but I admire you for giving it a try.

    Also, kudos to you for wanting to make positive changes in your life. It's so much harder to be earnest and honest in such a public forum than it is to be sarcastic (not that I don't enjoy the sarcasm immensely). If I didn't know better, I'd say it was a sign of maturity.

  • 71. Caroline said:

    Hey Heather, I'm RIGHT THERE with you on changing how I think about eating meat. After seeing the slaughterhouse scene in the "Fast Food Nation" movie and reading Barbara Kingsolver's "Animal, Vegetable, Miracle: A Year of Food Life," I decided not to buy beef, pork or poultry from conventional grocery stores, due precisely to the barbarism you mention. My feelings were further cemented upon reading "The Omnivore's Dilemma" by Michael Pollan, which is a stunning, shocking, and revelatory read if you care about the food you put in your body.

    However, I'm not giving up meat entirely. I can, with a clean conscience, purchase grass-fed and finished beef and pork, and truly free-range poultry from my local farmer's market. Local farms raising livestock this way are usually refreshingly transparent to their customers, and they believe in respecting the animal, giving it a biologically natural (and, quite possibly, happy) life and a quick and merciful death when the time comes. It's more expensive, but is quite morally defensible compared to CAFO meat, is packed full of Omega-3 fatty acids (yeah, the cure-everything stuff usually found in salmon) and tastes about a gazillion times better, too.

  • 72. Txgrrl said:

    Mark Bittman has a great article on strategies for intentionally eating less meat. We've employed several techniques with the goal being that the only meat we DO eat is humanely raised/slaughtered and processed cleanly.

    http://www.nytimes.com/2008/06/11/dining/11mini.html

    Good luck with the cleanse!

  • 73. Rebecca said:

    Maybe a cleanse would help my preggo heartburn. I am seeking solutions...

    I so empathize with all the things that hit you in the face after vacationing. Painful, really. Our homecomings always come with a line of ants.

    I'm advocating meditation--maybe an accompaniment to the cleanse. My buddhist/baptist father says it changes his whole day...and like you, Dooce, if I proclaim it, maybe I'll do it!

    A bit random--the order of those thoughts, but that's how I think these days...

  • 74. E-Lo said:

    Heather - I feel the same way - I'm sick of being unorganized, tired, anxious, and stressed. And I'm sick of meat, period. When I actually think about it, it makes me sick. But far be it from me to actually think about it while I'm eating a big juicy New York Strip.

    Hmm. Yeah. So I'll be interested to see how it goes for you, because I'm ordering the book today. And I keep tripping over suitcases (from a vacation two weeks ago), laundry baskets full of clean clothes, dog hair tumbleweeds, and crumbs.

    I just wanted to say, I feel ya.

  • 75. rebecca said:

    good luck with the cleanse Heather - I know you can do it :)

    I'm doing my best to make small changes to improve my cholesterol. I'm WAY too young to have high cholesterol. Dang genetics...

    Here's to cleansing and to making small changes daily that can improve our lives for a LONG time!

  • 76. beauxbeaux said:

    I think the cleanse is a great idea! Challenging, yes, but a good way to focus mind and body.

    I agree with Kat about free-range organic meats. Some farmers are very conscientious about caring for their livestock and it really shows in the quality of the product. Everyone wins: you get better quality meats, an independent farmer gets to make a living, and the animals have a pretty decent life. Worth the extra $$.

  • 77. Daniel said:

    Good for you! You'll find it's very easy to give up animal products. If you're going to give up meat for ethical reasons then you should also give up dairy and eggs. There is more suffering in a glass of milk than a pound of meat. Where do you think veal comes from?

  • 78. kirida said:

    Would cleansing make you lose your burping prowess? Maybe that is something to consider.

  • 79. Joy said:

    Wow, I have got to get me to Florida....

  • 80. Lori Magno said:

    Good luck on the cleanse. All positivity heading your way.

  • 81. Starwoodgal said:

    Remember what Erma Bombeck said....

    “If you can't make it better, you can laugh at it.”

    and

    “Housework, if you do it right, will kill you.”

    "Housework is a treadmill from futility to oblivion with stop offs at tedium and counter productivity."

    and finally,

    "On vacations: We hit the sunny beaches where we occupy ourselves keeping the sun off our skin, the saltwater off our bodies and the sand out of our belongings."

    Good luck with the cleanse.

  • 82. Anna said:

    I've done a 14-day "cleanse" before. It's hard but it's SO WORTH IT! If you want to get fancy, there are lots of soy-based, vegan items like cheeses and whatnot that are pretty good once you figure out how to cook them. And lots of gluten-free/wheat-free breads too, although I think you're supposed to limit those. I think I'm a dork but I love going to Trader Joe's or Whole Foods and searching for all the foods that I could eat.

    After a couple of days, I stopped craving meat and sugar and caffeine. I think our bodies get addicted to preservatives and junk food and that's why we crave them. Once you get the crap out of your system, you don't really care much about not eating it.

    Anyway, long story short, I hope it goes well and helps you out. It definitely helps me out whenever I need to get my act together.

  • 83. t@ryn said:

    I would like to try the diet sometime, but I know that PMS would likely strike during those 21 days and that would be the real test. Hormones drive me to gummy bears, Dove ice cream bars, and Cokes.

    I have been a vegetarian for almost a year now and I am surprised how much I do not miss meat. Sometimes I miss having a variety of choices; the freedom of not caring so much.

    As previous comments mention, the book Skinny Bitch is quite persuasive!

  • 84. Alyxherself said:

    Hey Heather,
    Yay you. I have been a vegetarian for 15 years and was a cynical meat eater beforehand, however, it has worked for me for all the reasons you gave. Oh, and I'm a Floridan :)
    One thing...probably you already thought of this but my girlfriend finds she is extremely sensitive to medications because she lives THAT cleanly..no smoke, no caffiene, etc...so I thought I'd say be very aware because your body is used to you lifestyle :) Thats all, loving concern :)

  • 85. Nichole said:

    I feel like I need to make some changes, too, but I haven't been able to find a good way to approach it. I hope the "cleanse" is helpful for you, and I look forward to reading about your experience. Maybe it'll kick me into gear.

  • 86. Knaphrodesiac said:

    The State of Florida should buy that phrase from Leta and use it to promote tourism.

  • 87. May said:

    Incredible post. Way to take charge. Looking forward to following your progress.

  • 88. Kristan said:

    You know, when I was a kid, I used to think there were two Floridas. ("Grandma lives in Florida" x 2 Grandmas = 2 Floridas. Logical, no?) Further proof that childhood is the happiest of times.

    Glad you're back (no really, you have NO IDEA) and good luck with the cleanse. I hope it helps you achieve the feeling you're looking for!

  • 89. Susan said:

    Yup, that's why I went vegetarian. I hear little piggies squeal in pain everytime I try to pick up a pack of bacon. So now I'm off it. And bonus, as soon as I went off meat (red in particular), my stomach felt better- I have chronic IBS and anxiety and both were dramatically reduced. (vegetarian-yoga combo)

    Good luck with your cleansing and readjusting to Utah. I can't say I have sympathy- I live in the middle of Colorado and we just had another freak June snowstorm. I'd rather drink bleach than see one more f***ing snowflake.

  • 90. Abigail M Schilling said:

    Very encouraging stuff.. I've been thinking about doing a cleanse/switching to a vegetarian diet as well. I'm looking forward to your daily insights.

  • 91. Liz said:

    Well, you're a better woman than I am. With a baby and a 3 yr old and working, it's all I can do to keep functioning day to day, much less try to attain a higher consciousness. But I'll be following your journey with interest. And it occurs to me I might have better luck trying to "take away" rather than "add to" - i.e., try to simplify life a little. At least for starters.

    Like the author says, baby steps.

  • 92. plue said:

    Recently, for the first time, I've been considering going vegetarian. My husband is a vegetarian and for years this was a constant source of annoyance (No French restaurants or BBQ ribs? Boy, life sucks). And now, after almost eleven years together, I am breaking down.

    We've always kept a strictly vegetarian house. I used to cook a lot of meals I enjoyed using meat substitutes (TVP and other vegetable protein foods) so that my husband could try the food I liked and came to discover that my recipes were better. My turning point was going to a cow farm and my husband saying, "Aw, isn't she cute? Why would you want to eat her?"

  • 93. binaross said:

    I wonder if your diet is all that different from The Fat Flush Plan? No wheat, no caffeine, no aspertame, no alcohol, no sugar. Lots of green veggies and protein, lots of diluted, unsweetened cranberry juice.

    Except, on my diet, you can eat meat. What happened to Meat Is Tasty, Tasty Murder, girl?

  • 94. Lori said:

    OMG, I've been feeling the same way, and have been looking at doing a cleanse to start things off. Thank you for posting your experience here as I know it will inspire me to do something similar.

    I don't know if I can give up my In-N-Out burger (I only get it a few times a year, but when I crave it, I must have it!)... but maybe the cleanse will cure me.

  • 95. Linsey said:

    I've been doing this cleanse for 17 days now and today is the first day where I do not have a headache, unmentionable issues going on in my bottom system or the constant desire for the sweet relief of death to overcome me.

    The weirdest thing for me is that the cravings I have had were not for the things I thought I would want the most. Honestly, all I really want is a grilled cheese sandwich.

  • 96. sweetcheese said:

    Wow--this sounds like a fantastic plan. (Much luck!) I need to work on "being present" as well. And the clense sounds promising, but I would have to adjust. How could I cope without cheese?

  • 97. Anonymous said:

    That is such a stunning photograph.

  • 98. Robin G. said:

    "I want to be a better wife, a more conscious and present mother, a more loyal friend, and a better listener. I'd like to handle my anxiety better. I also want to be more organized because I'm tired and fed up with not being able to find anything."

    Oh? Is that all?

    Seriously, though, that's a lot to put on a single diet, or even an overall plan. What you're talking about is a marathon, and part of the marathon is to pace yourself. As someone who has given up and gotten discouraged 100 meters in more than once, be careful how many goals you list -- especially goals like those. You might find yourself deeply disappointed if you can't manage them all at once -- you know, like all other humans. It's not something to approach from a valedictorian standpoint.

    Thank being said, I wish you the greatest of luck on your improvement journey. I hope it works for you.

  • 99. Anonymous said:

    Are you seriously going to give up BACON?!!

  • 100. Mitchell said:

    I'm glad to hear you're going vegan, Heather, even if it's only for a few days. But the no alcohol thing, man, that's extreme! Good luck and maybe I can toss some good recipes your way.

  • 101. Christina said:

    We were just in Panama City Beach at the same time you were in Destin. I hope you had the same great weather we did. It was my husbands first time in PCB and since then his 2 year plan is to get the hell out of Chicago, and move to Panama City Beach. I feel your pain of leaving. I kept begging to stay.

  • 102. Emily said:

    You'll be awake, you'll be alert, you'll be positive, though it hurts...Your last paragraph instantly reminded me of my anthem of the past few years. Beautiful. I can totally relate to your desire for self-improvement, and think it's great that you're trying to be so healthy, but I also agree with the earlier poster who pointed out how hard we women tend to be on ourselves. Even though I only know what I've read of you, I think you are probably a pretty great person already. So whether or not you make it through the whole cleanse, or go vegetarian, or get more organized, or do anything differently in relation to your husband and daughter, I hope that you will remember how great you are and be kind to yourself. Maybe it sounds silly, but I really honestly believe this is the single best thing we can do for ourselves, our loved ones, and the world at large.

  • 103. Lucy said:

    I'm on day five of this thing. It sucks! My head hurts, I'm tired and I miss cheese! Actually, I miss cheetos. And ice cream. I dream of ice cream, big bowls of sweet heaven sprinkled with salty crunchy cheetos. Lord, please help me, I'm losing it....

  • 104. Kara said:

    What you need (on the organizational front) is a great assistant. You're too busy to do crappy things like paying bills, making doctor appointments, and making sure all your other appointments don't conflict. You can pay someone else to do it! Bonus: I live right down the street from you, I am currently a stay-home mommy to a 2 year old with way too much time on my hands, and I have an awesome administrative assistant resume. Tempting?

  • 105. Madame Queen said:

    Let me know how that public accountability works out for you. I did the same thing when I joined weight watchers and my plan is now down the toilet. Not literally of course b/c I'm kind of a prude and I don't talk about poo, unless it's my kids' b/c I'm a mommy blogger and all. Yeah right.

    Of course you have scads more readers than I do, and from what I've seen they WILL take you to task, so good luck to you. I'm afraid I can't even contemplate a life with steak. And beer.

  • 106. Iver Jane said:

    Oprah should have you on her show to talk about it. That would be worth Tivoing.

    I'm excited to hear about your foray into being a vegetarian. I've been considering the move myself. But I really love hot dogs.

  • 107. JMB said:

    The fact that you got the bar/bat mitzvah thing correct gets you an extra 10 points, to be spent on something once a point system is worked out.

  • 108. Yolanda said:

    That's the beauty of a great vacation. You arrive home with a sense of clarity, a renewed purpose. Hanging onto that feeling is another matter. It's generally a fleeting feeling, quickly consumed by the demands of every day life and ingrained habits of mind that are hard to break away from. But I hope it's more than a momentary epiphany for you and that you get what you need from the cleanse. I'll reserve my opinions about giving up meat. Who needs judgement when they're trying to turn a new leaf?

  • 109. Jill S. said:

    I've been wanting to make a change for a long time, and have circled around Oprah's plan for weeks. I'm afraid to give up sugar. There. How sad is that?

    If you live through it, I will try. Thanks for going first
    . :)

  • 110. www.snickerdoodles.typepad.com said:

    I have been reading Oprah's cleanse blog...I am keen on doing that program too but to be honest the food often sounds rather gross. She had major butt issues after the black bean burgers. Maybe if I had a personal chef to try and make things yummy but I am having a hard time seeing me stick to it. I am thinking July when it's hot and coffee is not so appealing and I can chow down on fruit. Good luck!

  • 111. Katie said:

    Ohhh that picture. *weep* I'm another uprooted Southern girl now living in Utah. I miss trips to Florida.

    Good luck on the cleanse! I don't know if you've ever read anything by Dr. Oz, but "You: Staying Young: The Owner's Manual for Extending Your Warranty (You)" is a really good read for health stuff like that.

    Good luck - love your blog and pics!

  • 112. Anonymous said:

    If you do decide to become a vegetarian, can I have your "Meat is Murder. Tasty, tasty murder" t-shirt?

  • 113. Erika said:

    Good lord. If you're disorganized, then there's officially NO HOPE for me. I've seen the pictures of your house, and it's about 50,000 times cleaner and nicer than mine will ever be.

    We went to Florida in early March, at the end (more or less) of our Winter of the 100 Inches, and while I don't think my 5-yo daughter actually *said* "why can't ever day be Florida?", I'm sure she was thinking it. Come to think of it, so was I...

  • 114. Emily said:

    Awesome post. If you haven't already, I highly recommend you read Barbara Kingsolver's "Animal, Vegetable, Miracle" (though I see someone else has already recommended it, in which case I second the recommendation). It has made me completely rethink the way we eat, the sad state of our nation's food industry, and so on. As dog is my witness, it will help you make every day Florida!

  • 115. MK said:

    I admire any one who even ponders the cleanse. Good for you! You are a more disciplined human that I, which is why I would never judge anyone for not being able to stick to it. Sometimes the body has its own wisdom.

    I was a vegetarian for 5+ years but not for any reason in particular. It went well for me, except for the part about people wanting to judge me for it. Or often they became defensive because they expected me to judge them for not being a vegetarian. I was a little ahead of my time, I suppose. One day, it was overwhelmingly clear to me that I needed to have animal protein. So I had some and I felt so much better than I had in the few months prior. But in order to do that, I had to stop judging myself first. Because I had become identified with being a vegetarian.

    Oh the 'splaining I had to do! "I am." and then suddenly "I'm not." That was the hard part for me. I was so conscious of appearing to be a hypocrite when I was really just following my bodies wants all along.

    Now, it has to occur to me to eat meat but sometimes my body just knows when the time is right. Some people think that the need or tendency is related to blood type or maybe because meat is included in the typical foods of my ancestors.

    Who knows?

    I gave up the Netti Pot a few years ago and exchanged it for this product called NeilMed.:

    http://www.neilmed.com/usa/products.php

    It's powerful enough to cleanse the upper sinuses, which a netti pot doesn't do quite as well.

    Good luck. As ever, thanks for continuing to show up online and for always being a source of inspiration!

  • 116. Lynda said:

    What an amazingly beautiful picture! The colors just take my breath away. One of those you just want to walk into, or stare at for great lengths of time. Thank you for posting it.

    I'm surprised at your organization comment. From pics you've shown of your house it looks like you're VERY organized and VERY meticulous.

    Good Luck with your cleanse.

  • 117. Amanda said:

    Please be careful on the cleanse. Recovered anorexics can get a bit extreme when so much focus is placed on what, when and how to eat. I'm a vegetarian, but I support local, pastured animal food for meat eaters.

  • 118. Marta said:

    WAIT!

    You can cleanse your body. You can cleanse your mind. You can even cleanse your spirit. But if you cleanse your potty mouth, I'll be really mad.

  • 119. gesikah said:

    No sugar, gluten, caffeine, alcohol, or animal products.

    So...I'm not sure I could do that for 21 hours, much less 21 days.

    I did a no sugar/gluten thing once. Lasted about 5 days but broke down when I walked in my parents' house and caught a whiff of white bread. Which was store-bought, in it's plastic wrap, in the pantry in the kitchen. Even so, it smelled like what I imagine Heaven will smell like as I am shooed back out the Pearly Gates.

    Can't wait to hear how it goes.

  • 120. that girl said:

    Alcohol, Sugar aaaannndddd (!) CAFFIENE?! Is that some kind of sick joke? That danged Oprah!

    Does she have a hybernation cave for me to crawl into during this "cleanse"? Because I'm telling you right now - those three things mentioned above are all my body runs on.

  • 121. Kristin said:

    I like you, am always looking for ways to better myself. I can't wait to see what comes of your journey. While I can't see myself giving up meat or cheese, I know there are several changes that I NEED to make in my life and I wish you all the luck in the world with yours. My only question, didn't Florida have fried food? See it's okay to eat that stuff. Florida said so.point :)

  • 122. GoVeg said:

    I was just really excited to hear that you are even considering eliminating meat from your diet. I have been vegetarian now for almost 15 years, but I am the first to say meat tastes good. I stopped eating it when as a 12 year old, aspiring veterinarian, and I realized that eating animals when I appreciated their unconditional love, companionship and individuality was beyond hypocritical. (Clearly, I was not a normal 12 year old.) When I was older, I learned to appreciate other aspects to becoming vegetarian that only strengthened my commitment: destruction of the environment, health, factory farming, etc.

    I'm sure you're already aware of all these aspects, but while going organic and free-range is a step in the right direction (and better than simply eating meat indiscriminately), I don't think it's enough when it comes to animals. Keep in mind that organic is regulated by the FDA and refers only to pesticides, hormones, etc. Free range, however, is regulated very little (if at all) and is often used in a misleading fashion to imply that eggs/meat were produced/killed humanely when this is not necessarily the case.

    Good luck with your 3-week diet cleanse. As dedicated as I am to being vegetarian, I'm too lazy to be that disciplined!

  • 123. Chloe said:

    So much for my recent plea for you to feature something about bacon!

    Best of luck on the cleansing.

  • 124. GEMMERZZ said:

    making your cleanse public is definitely a big help -- the more people you tell, the more you'll feel accountable and will want to stick to it.

    i'm an avid cleanser, so i know it can be tough. stick it out, though. the results can be tremendous and you'll feel a lot better about yourself in addition to feeling better physically! i haven't tried this 21-day cleanse, but i'm checking it out now. might be the next one i do after my upcoming one in july!

    thanks for sharing and good luck!

  • 125. Rose said:

    A very inspiring post! I'm looking forward to reading more.

  • 126. Ms.Moon said:

    I like what Michael Pollen says in his book The Omnivore's Dilemma:

    "Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants."

    It's doable, sensible, and flexible enough to live with for life.

    Bless Oprah- how many ways HAS she found to change her life? Bless us all for following her down all these paths.

  • 127. rb said:

    Good luck with your cleanse.

    I would like to make what may be an unpopular comment.

    Please don't become a prosletyzing vegetarian.

    I am meat eater. I grew up on a ranch and I know where my meat comes from. I am fine if my friends and acquaintances want to be vegetarians. I cook veggie burgers and veggie dogs for them when I have a bbq. But about the second or third time they decide to lecture me while I'm eating my hamburger is generally the last time we socialize.

  • 128. candace said:

    1) do you read all these comments?! wow.

    2) i just discovered you (i am a late bloomer) and have really been enjoying your style - candid, honest, sarcastic. it's so damn refreshing.

    3) how in the world do you get so many coments?! i mean i write because i would die if i didn't, but since i have to do it to stay alive, may as well get people to read it right? and then what if they read but don't comment (which i confess i have been doing with you for weeks) how will the "big" people start to notice it and pay me! :)

    4) i am the biggest proponent of sefl-care that i know, so i say hells yes to women who refuse to sacrafice all that they are for everyone except themselves.

  • 129. Ingrid said:

    To the people that are being critical a single diet will offer Heather all the changes she wishes to make in her life, you're missing the point. She's not saying the cleanse diet is going to make her organized. She's just trying to make some overall improvements with her lifestyle, and eating healthier is among them.

    I used to suffer from incapacitating stomach problems, and most of them disappeared when I stopped eating meat five years ago.
    Be prepared though for the hoards of people asking you, "But where do you get your protein from?" and them being bewildered by the answer "From food".

  • 130. Julie said:

    The thought of no alcohol for 21 days in the summer makes me shudder...no sangria or beer for trips to the beach or picnics in the park? And then I realized "Wow, the fact that I would miss alcohol the most out of that list of things I eat every day? That's kind of sad." Maybe I'm more in need of a cleanse than I thought. Best of luck with yours, Heather.

  • 131. Connie said:

    Cheese pizza? (Bring on the violence!)

    Good luck with your diet. I, myself, have been taking really small steps to becoming healthier. It first started off with kicking alcohol to the curb, followed by soda, and eventually junk food. Caffeine is the only thing that keeps me going, and I know that I will eventually have to kick that habit, too. Although, you did hear that new research shows that women who drink 2 cups of coffee every morning are less likely to have a heart attack, right? But then again, women who don't drink coffee at all are less likely to be spastic caffeine addicts whose perfectly groomed hair will soon catch up with Einstein's.

  • 132. Sarah said:

    God Heather, you took the words right out of my mouth. I'm at work right now, and I just printed your gorgeous picture and taped it to my monitor to help get me through the rest of this week. Also, as so many people have said, I look forward to reading your updates on the cleanse. I've been toying with it for a long time, so maybe this will be the catalyst. As for the last paragraph, I wish I could give a fist bump. That's exactly what I needed to read.

  • 133. Doni said:

    Good luck with your cleanse! Hopefully your wit and sense of humor doesn't leave you like the toxins will.

  • 134. Noimagination said:

    Congrats on your decision. It's been 18 years since I ate meat, and I feel terrific both health-wise and about the fact that I do not participate in the barbaric and wasteful mass slaughter of animals. And since my husband has (mostly) given up meat, he hasn't been sick at all. So there you go.

  • 135. LG said:

    I am on day 9 of the cleanse and I honestly feel a million times better. Getting over the caffeine withdrawal headache was my hardest part - but lots of trips to the farmers market and Whole Foods has kept me going strong! Good luck, and don't forget to throw in meditation or yoga or pilates or something - that really helps with the 'awareness' part of it all!

  • 136. Nicole said:

    le siiigh, Heather. When I heard Oprah was doing that cleanse I was like "OH GREAT" now everyone is going to do it as a trend. Going vegan shouldn't be a trend! It's a lifestyle choice. I'm glad to hear you may stop eating meat after that, though. I hope your readers follow your example...but not as a trend.

  • 137. Mandy said:

    Can I just say that I heart Destin so flippin' much that when I saw the blue chairs and umbrellas in one of your pictures my eyes welled up with tears? We're headed that way in a couple of weeks...so good for the soul. And please, unless you just organize the little area where you are about to take a photo every time you take a photo - your house looks pretty damn organized to me. But I can so relate to being tired of not being able to find things. UUUGGGHHH. I have too much stuff. Have you read "It's All Too Much?" You should. Did you see the Oprah 2 day show where the author of that book (Walsh? maybe?) worked with this lady who is a hoarder? OMG. I am so sorry I am blogging in your comments. The end.

  • 138. Lou said:

    youreawesomeyoureawesomeyoureawesomeyoureawesome. I always thought you were awesome, but now I feel this overpowering urge to say it!

  • 139. Becky said:

    Good luck, and thanks for sharing your 21 day cleanse with us, I hope it has the results you're looking for! Here's to Florida every day!
    :) Becky

  • 140. EricaB said:

    Good luck with your cleanse! I look forward to hearing how you are feeling each day!

    I am of the opinion that a vacation is never REALLY a vacation for a mother. Who packs and plans and unpacks and cleans and...well, you get the idea. Always ME.

    I HATE vacations. For me it only means squeezing everything I do on a daily basis into a hotel room (or a one room cabin as the case may be)...and then the clean up afterwards. Ugh!

  • 141. Mandy said:

    I hope all goes well in the next few weeks!

    But, is Coco OK? My little guys have bouts with gastroenteritis, and the vomiting can be a really serious symptom. I hope she's feeling better soon.

  • 142. michelle said:

    Looking forward to followng the progress. I would rather hear your experience with the cleanse than anything that oprah has to say.
    Just sayin'.

  • 143. Undomestic Diva said:

    But do they have to call it a "cleanse?" It would be way more appetizing if they just called it something else. Anything else.

  • 144. victoria said:

    Good luck! I'll be fascinated to know how the cleanse works for you.

  • 145. andrea said:

    Good for you! I'm looking forward to reading about the cleanse. Maybe some day I'll actually try it but no cheese! That seems like some sort of sin.

    I've been there with the dog diarrhea all. over. the. place. You have to fight the gag reflex while you scrub every inch of it out of the carpet. Ew.

  • 146. kerri said:

    fyi, some doctors believe there's a connection between sinus infections and dairy. sounds like jon should try a cleanse diet too...and a good chiropractor (for sinuses? i know, sounds crazy, but you'd be surprised). can't hurt to try. good luck!

    http://www.milksucks.com/mucus.asp
    http://www.sinussurvival.com/faq/faqDiet.html

  • 147. Anonymous said:

    I see how you are. Just when you've convinced me to take up bourbon, you go ahead and give up, err... well, everything. So sneaky!

  • 148. jvashus said:

    I've been "leaning into it" as Kathy says. I did the cleanse for 7 straight days and felt a huge difference. The biggest difference was the lack of cravings I had! Now I'm going without sugar, gluten, alcohol, caffine and dairy during the week. On the weekends I let myself slip a little. It's been working wonders! Good luck and I'm anxious to hear your updates!

  • 149. Juice Box Hero said:

    "especially since the recent chaos is only going to get more chaotic"

    I think that's the second time you've referenced the notion that things will soon be getting crazier over at the Blurbodoocery (sp?). I'll stay tuned to see what happens.

    Good luck with the cleanse!

  • 150. Kate D. said:

    I was surprised how easy kicking caffine was when I recently discovered that I had reason to, at the very least, cut down on the caffine intake. I had a slight headache the first day, but after that I've been fine. I do admit I have a big iced decaf every morning however.

    Quiting smoking, for the same recently discovered reason, on the other hand, sucks-donkey-turds.

    But doing both has made me very interested in the 21 day cleanse so I'll be following with interest.

  • 151. ashleyd said:

    you can send me your "meat is murder. tasty, tasty murder" shirt then!! haha!

    at the young age of 25 i have have to get a colonoscopy... i've heard a lot of people eating "clean" after the procedure. i think i'm going to see how that goes. i don't know how i'm going to get around eating the dead animals i love so much though.

  • 152. Twenty Four At Heart said:

    Beautiful pic ... you should frame that one. When you're stressed out you can look at it and think Florida. Wow, I hope I come back from my vacation that refreshed and goal oriented!

  • 153. valentine214 said:

    Heather,
    I always enjoy reading your blog but thank you for this post - I feel like you have summed up my life at the moment.

    My husband and I are searching for humanely raised meat (because I love me some meat) and we've found a dairy farm who raises their cows only on grass paddocks, and when the time comes for the cows to "meet their maker" she sings to the cows, thanks them for their service, tells them how honorable they have been and will be, how they will nourish people and continue their service, etc. Yeah it's a little wacky and unconventional but it sure beats the way Mickey-D-land does it. Now I just need to find chickens, etc.

    I am looking forward to reading Quantum Wellness, energy stuff is amazing to me. I'd heard of another book called "The Secret Life of Plants" which is supposed