I can't fight this feeling any longer
My mother called yesterday to see how Leta was doing and lamented that she so badly wanted to come over and take her for the day. My response to that was GIVE IN TO THE URGE, MOTHER. Why fight those feelings?
My life is nothing but a textbook example of what the repression of urges can do to a human being: one day I'm a virginal alto in the high school choir who protects her eternal salvation by refusing to partake of iced tea, and just a few years later I'm reenacting Van Halen videos in front of hundreds of people while drunk on the spirit of Satan.
"Come get Leta now, Mother," I warned because I could see my mom's future and it involved studded leather and tattoos. And biting the head off a rat in front of an Avon vice-president.
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Kristine said:
Oh, that image. Nightmares tonight. FOR SURE.
03.22.06 - 07:56 AM / 1Melanie said:
Yikes! Yer freakin' me out!!! LOL Although, after having repressed many urges in my day, I frequently bite the heads off of small children. Can't help myself. :)
03.22.06 - 07:57 AM / 2Snickrsnack Katie said:
The coming together of Skin-So-Soft and headless bats - now that is some scary mental imagery. Yet somehow provocative.
03.22.06 - 07:58 AM / 3ProudMary said:
I'm just really disappointed that you didn't go for the Air Supply reference of "I Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore."
03.22.06 - 08:00 AM / 4Amanda B. said:
Just please, for God's sake, make sure Leta learns to appreciate finer forms of musical talent like Toto and Winger.
03.22.06 - 08:01 AM / 5PaintingChef said:
And surely the moment Leta does that will be one of the proudest of your life...right?
03.22.06 - 08:02 AM / 6erisian said:
being originally from the land of the big salty puddle, all i can really say is, "mmm tea..."
03.22.06 - 08:03 AM / 7supermom_in_ny said:
I think you are brave.
Why? Well,if I had someone I could leave my 7 with...I don't know if I would actually come back?! I'd be MIA!! LOL!!! Seriously, it's hard to remember what it was like before the constant "Mommy" chanting. Was it all just a dream or did I really have a life before this?
03.22.06 - 08:08 AM / 8barbie2be said:
“Come get Leta, now, Mother,†I warned because I could see her future and it involved studded leather and tattoos. And biting the head off a rat in front of an Avon vice-president.
you say that like it's a bad thing... ;)
03.22.06 - 08:13 AM / 9gabip said:
How I envy you. We just moved to Seattle, leaving my parents behind in San Diego and I would give my two front teeth just to be able to have my Mom come over and take Alex for the day like she used to. Alex turned two in Feb and everything is Mamaaaaaaaa, Mamaaaaaaa, Mamaaaaaaa, all day, every day. You are a lucky, lucky woman, you have a house husband and the Avon Queen.
03.22.06 - 08:21 AM / 10Stepha1202 said:
And don't forget all of the intimate piercings!
03.22.06 - 08:23 AM / 11kendall said:
lol. too funny.
Heather, have you ever seen the movie "Saved"? If not, you need to go out and rent/buy it. Immediately.
03.22.06 - 08:29 AM / 12tksinclair said:
My kid walked in one day with a friend who had, and I'm not kidding, "Fuck Everything" tattooed across his stomach. He was 18 at the time. I've often wondered what's up with him today, at 30. I mean if you feel that way at 18 do things get better or worse in life? And if worse what do you tattoo on yourself then? "And I really meant it!" Or, if better do you then choose a career path to "match" the tattoo and change the "Fuck" to "Duck?" Duck Everything? (okay if you start collecting Ducks I guess) You could go live on a ranch and change it to Muck Everything. Play hockey and Puck Everything....I obviously have too much time on my hands today...
03.22.06 - 08:30 AM / 13Kassi said:
Just the other day my 12 going on 13 year old asked me for a Rob Zombie CD...it will happen someday. Give it time. Enjoy the non biting heads off baby bats stage while you can.
03.22.06 - 08:31 AM / 14Sandra Heikkinen said:
Your mom is lucky that you're watching out for her, and that you're so willing to take one for the proverbial team. May all the rats in her vicinity keep their heads...
03.22.06 - 08:32 AM / 15Wendy Mac said:
I remember the day my mother called me to say, *gasp*, do you know your sister drinks, *pause*, alcohol??
But I do enjoy those moments when my child walks up to a total stranger and says, "Cigarettes will kill you!"
Ahh, parents.
03.22.06 - 08:32 AM / 16funkiepj said:
i live in LA and thought of you yesterday as i saw two young, nubile girls driving down olympic blvd. in a shiny new civic with utah plates and a plate holder declaring 'brigham young university alumni'. oh sweet jesus. my mind filled with thoughts of their first sips of coffee and their alcohol fueled fumblings on soap star couches and i laughed and laughed and laughed....
03.22.06 - 08:40 AM / 17Hannah B. said:
Air Supply? *gasp* There's someone else who remembers Air Supply?
Yeah, yeah, off topic, I know. Satan, Van Halen, bat-biting...
03.22.06 - 08:42 AM / 18Carli said:
When they say that kids change you, you really don't comprehend how much and in which body parts. The last few days I have been on my own with the "three under 5" and let's just say that I have made a concious decision NOT to drink after they've gone to bed, but only because it would have serious interactions with all of the Xanax that I've had to take to get through the day. I hope your mom comes through, and teaches Leta the secrets of Avon Domination!
03.22.06 - 08:44 AM / 19rivetergirl said:
So it's Satan we have to thank for you general wonderfulness.
03.22.06 - 08:45 AM / 20jes said:
I hope you keep this site throughout Leta's life. I genuinely want to know who will warp her more:
a) the Avon World Sales Leader on behalf of The Church; or
b) the Daughter Who Reverts and loses all rights to The Will.
03.22.06 - 08:55 AM / 21katehopeeden said:
I don't come from a family that will come and get my kids for a day.
I do however come from one of those "hippy" families.
My parents used to drop acid and roll joints at the kitchen table.
I didn't know either was illegal until after the DARE program came to our school.
Needless to say, none of my urges were repressed :)
~K
03.22.06 - 09:00 AM / 22Jennifer said:
The real question is: what urge will you cease to repress during your short reprieve from Leta? Please let us know about it. I'm sure it will be entertaining.
03.22.06 - 09:06 AM / 23skissman said:
I could have sworn that REO Speedwagon did "I can't fight this feeling". One of their light rock, love ballad, high school dance songs.
"Lost in Love" was my favorite Air Supply song.
God, I feel old.
03.22.06 - 09:07 AM / 24William said:
I keep seeing air supply references. I thought it was REO speedwagon? Okay I am dork for knowing that.
Does the spirit of satan taste like Tequila?
03.22.06 - 09:11 AM / 25Brandi Walzer said:
I agree with the above comment - rent Saved, it's pretty funny!
I like reading your memories of your 'straight' days, because I have a friend who recently became Mormon and he talks about when he used to drink. Haha.
And oh yes, did you ever talk about your good news that you were meeting with lawyers about? I can't remember...
03.22.06 - 09:17 AM / 26dre said:
OMG I just CRACKED UP out loud in my little cubicle! You are TOO funny Heather! (and yes, REO Speedwagon ROCKS!) :)
03.22.06 - 09:19 AM / 27Wendy said:
Hey Heather. I'm new to your blog. It's definitely a fun read. Sometimes I feel like I'm too old to be out getting loaded like I used to (I think I had some major repression issues, too), but I'm finding that at 33 I can still bust it out every once in a while. For example, recently I sang "Sweet Child of Mine" with a local band in our town. Sounds great, other than the fact I don't sing. But, hey, it was GNR, what can I say?
03.22.06 - 09:23 AM / 28Elenalyn said:
Now that's an urge that needs no repressing. Hurrah for grandmothers!
03.22.06 - 09:26 AM / 29Hanni said:
I'm sorry, but if iced tea, Van Halen, tattoos and leather-studded hot pants are wrong, then damn it, I don't wanna be right.
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