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To juice or not to juice

Last week a ton of my friends and colleagues came to town for the annual Alt Summit held downtown at the Grand America. This year I didn’t have anyone staying at my house so I thought it would be a little less busy than years before, but my schedule has a tendency to spiral quickly into meetings and more meetings and even more meetings and suddenly there is no time left in the day to sit down and come up with a fart joke.

I had finished my juice cleanse (juice “fast,” whichever one is going to prevent you from leaving another very concerned comment about me and the welfare of my children) the week before knowing that things might get a little chaotic with so many of my friends in town, and I’m glad I have waited until now to write down some of my impressions of that experience. I’ve had some time to reflect and analyze what I was feeling and thinking during those five days, and if I had said anything when I had my first bite of solid food it would have read like my website normally does, totally dramatic and exaggerated and most definitely in all caps: WORST THING EVER.

Life is black and white and there is nothing in between. In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

I had heard some version of the following sentence about 1400 times before I decided to do this: “Oh, you know, by day three you’ll start to feel great and then by the end you’ll want to eat like that forever!”

I’d like to go back in time, find every single person who said that to me, and jab them in the thigh with a fork.

I was ravenous by day five. I was counting down the hours and minutes until I could chew a piece of food with my teeth. I was GLEEFUL that it was almost over. Every other thought in my head was, “I get to eat soon. I get to eat soon. I get to eat soon.” However, every thought in between those was, “My thoughts have never been clearer, my thoughts have never been clearer, my thoughts—wait, I GET TO EAT SOON!”

So, would I ever do this again? I’ll get to that in a minute, but I think I should explain some other things first.



Some of you asked if I would share the recipes I used for the juices. If you do a google search for “juice cleanse recipes” you’ll get pages and pages of ideas and the “IT’S A FAD DON’T DO IT YOU IDIOT” articles thrown in for good measure. There are some fantastic recipes out there. However, several of my friends who tried it mentioned just how time consuming it is and suggested that I find a juice bar in my area. Since I don’t own a juicer, the juice bar idea sounded like the way to go. Yes, it was expensive to have five days worth of fresh juice delivered to my house (once on Sunday evening, once on Wednesday evening), but the expense was also a very good motivator. I really, truly, most definitely wanted to give up that first night but I took a look at all that fresh juice in my refrigerator, thought about what I had paid for it, and determined that I would be seeing this to its very end YOUNG LADY.

Every morning I had a green juice filled with carrots, spinach, parsley and apples. Mid-morning I drank a 16-ounce water filled with lemon and cayenne pepper. For lunch I had a juice made from spinach, cucumber, parsley, celery, apple, pear, lemon, and ginger. The afternoon drink was coconut water, and then dinner was the juice from carrots, apples, beets, lemon and ginger. And it was all totally disgusting.

Oh my god, so gross. Just awful. No, no, no, no, no. If the pain of divorce had a flavor, that would be it. “Divorce Water.” I’m going to start a juice bar specifically for people who are about to get divorced so that they can come in and find out what the next few years of their lives are going to taste like.

That first day I had to hold my nose to get any of it down. I loathe coconut water and when it made me puke a little bit on the first day I stopped drinking that altogether. By lunch of day two I decided to try a little trick that probably invalidates the whole cleanse to people who take this all very, very seriously: I bought some stevia and I added a single packet to every juice. Cheating? Probably. Yeah, most definitely. Totally cheating. But I was able to get the juices down. Juice hack!


I tried my normal workout the first day of the cleanse and it was embarrassing. I thought I would have enough energy from the meal I had eaten the night before, but I was thoroughly mistaken. And from there I got progressively more exhausted. I did not feel at any point during this cleanse that I had enough energy for a normal workout, so instead I took the dogs on long walks. I even ordered almond water because the juice company claimed it would give me an energy boost. They lied.


First, the bad ones…

1. Exhaustion, more exhaustion, even more exhaustion
2. Terrible headaches
3. Mid-day slumps that felt like I had been drugged and beaten
4. I could not ever get warm. I was constantly, irritatingly cold.
5. My stomach routinely interrupted conversations with odd noises.

The good ones…

1. I haven’t sleep that well in months.
2. I’d wake up before my alarm and not be angry about it.
3. Every morning I felt so happy and positive and almost beaming.
4. Cravings for unhealthy indulgences quickly disappeared.
5. By the morning of day five my head was so clear that I was certain (and still feel this way) that this cleanse would be life-changing.

Let me expound on that last one for a second, because it is the reason why I will do this again. It’s the reason why I could recommend this to anyone looking to make some changes to their life. I feel like this was life-changing not in the sense that winning the lottery is life-changing. It’s not like I discovered a new religion or have somehow communed with an angel.

When you get that exhausted and when you have restricted your life so that you cannot seek comfort from stress in food, a lot of the noise in your life comes into stark relief. And you realize, what a minute. That’s just a lot of noise. Why am I putting up with that noise? I don’t need that noise in my life.

All that noise became so suddenly clear and so immediately unnecessary. And because I didn’t have the energy to deal with it, I didn’t. I just let it all go. I said, enough. I’m done.

I have been perpetuating cycles of unhealthy noise for a very long time thinking that all I had to do was attend to the noise and it would eventually resolve itself, thinking that if I didn’t attend to it, the noise would get worse. Turns out the exact opposite was true. I had to abandon it. I had to close it off. And my god, the clarity that shot right into my life the moment I did.

I didn’t read any of that in a book. No one told me this would happen. It was a very unexpected and joyous side effect that hasn’t dissipated since I returned to my normal way of eating. If all of this sounds very hippy, I’m fine with that. I’d happily grow dreadlocks and hang wind chimes over my toilet if it meant I could reach the same peace of mind.


If you are going to attempt something like this you should probably slowly eliminate certain things from your diet first. Gradually stop eating gluten. Reduce your caffeine intake. Get rid of all the processed food in your pantry. Go a few meals without any dairy. See how your body reacts each time you eliminate something. My normal diet doesn’t contain any gluten or dairy or processed sugar, and even for someone who eats like me the exhaustion and headaches were unreal.

If you can afford to do so, go somewhere quiet and peaceful where you can nap and recover and read and then nap some more. I only sort of recommend this because I’m not sure I would have discovered all the noise in my life had I done so. I probably wouldn’t have experienced that realization. I had my kids and their school routines and homework and piano practice and work and projects and meetings and deadlines. I had to take it hour by hour. I would have loved to crawl up in a ball underneath some covers, but I didn’t have that option.

Ultimately for me this endeavor was a huge success, although it was most definitely grueling work. I tried three new Paleo recipes the first week off of the cleanse, recipes that I cooked in my kitchen with kitchen things. This past weekend I tried two more. I AM COOKING AND I AM ENJOYING IT OMG WTF. I happily got rid of some things in my pantry that I had too easily let slip back into my normal routine. Most importantly, I check myself every day for the noise in my life and whether or not I’m fostering it or letting it go.

Off to order some wind chimes.

  • VT

    Heather, I have always been critical of these because I just love food so much! But I am interested to see how my body would react to it. But I’m curious about doing a smoothie cleanse versus juice. I’ve juiced, and I hate how all the rest of the fruits and veggies go to waste! Seems to me smoothies wouldn’t be much different (provided they don’t contain added sugars and only those from a whole food). Plus this is made easier by my Vitamix. Thoughts?

  • Lauren

    Thanks so much, Heather. Apology of course accepted, but you know, it’s not really even an apology-warranting thing. I could have deduced that what you just described was the situation. Like I said, I did struggle with whether or not to actually say something, and for the very reasons that you outline.

    I understand your fatigue lense. (And I wouldn’t expect you to separate me out in your post!) I know about all that insane criticism you get, and THAT stuff also stings me. I want to puff up when I read some of the comments here and say, “DO YOU HAVE ANY UNDERSTANDING OF THE HUMAN CONDITION? Of how people work!? You don’t know the Heather I ‘know!'”

    In sum: I’ll always adore you, Heather B. Armstrong. INTERNET EMOTIONZZZZZ

  • Lauren

    Thanks, RzDrms (which I am pronouncing in my head as Rizz Derms). I’m with you on those guys!

  • MallyMon

    You may or may not be aware that here in the UK we are in the midst of a
    sugar crisis. That is to say, there’s too much of it. In our food, in
    our drinks, in our bodies. Apparently we now have the dubious honor of
    being the fattest nation in Europe. So that’s good. International
    debates are raging and research continues as to whether or not sugar is
    as addictive as cocaine or tobacco. On the one hand our government is
    saying we’re all too fat, we have to cut down on sugar. On the other
    hand, they are making lots of money from tax on the sugar trade. We’re
    in a mess! All I can say is that if you have found a way to improve both
    mind and body, then nobody should malign you for it. All the banter
    about the cost of having juice delivered is just silly. It’s your money,
    you earned it, you put it to good use and your children didn’t suffer.
    It really isn’t up to you to save the rest of humanity. It’s rare to
    know what your body needs, and even rarer to meet those needs. I could
    not have done it. However, now I’m starting to read the backs of packets
    in supermarkets and pay more attention to what is in the food I buy.
    And I’m cutting down. On sugar, on dairy and on gluten. For starters.
    After all, it’s my life and my body. I’m going to take charge, just as
    you have done. You are an inspiration, keep up the good work! The haters
    are only jealous ‘cos they can’t do it.

  • deannamcneil

    Hi Heather! I haven’t read your blog in quite a while. I’ve missed you. Somehow this post seems to be the perfect place to keep up. I really respect how creative you are, how brave you are. You’ll never know how important your bravery helped me, inspired me to seize help when I needed it most. I am cared for, well (I also endured divorce juice) and ever so grateful for all that I have received. Mainly though, I just wanted to say ‘Hi’!

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  • Amy

    I’m not sure about in Utah, but in the Toronto area you can get juice delivery for around $45 a day. And there are often sales or groupons available. While it’s not cheap, I don’t think that is overly indulgent. Mind you, since I am a resident of Ontario, I don’t need to pay when I go to the doctor… (Since juice and healthcare seem to be connected?)

    And where do you draw the line? Should I take down my recent vacation photos because some people can’t go on vacation? Don’t enter an Oscar pool because some people could only rent one of the movies?

  • Vanessa Fisher

    Wow. That puts it so well… I have done the Master Cleanse before with similar results. The clarity, oh the clarity. I recently did a 21 day Panchakarma in India and understand what you mean by letting go of the noise. Very liberating…

  • Keri

    Love. This. You go, girl.

  • Courtney K.

    So, no one’s allowed to have any fun or eat any “fancy” foods as long as there are starving people out there. Gruel for everyone!

  • CN

    I find it so fascinating people’s need to judge others based on what they think they know about another person’s life… and I say this as a former person who used to judge others a lot more based on what I really had no idea about: people are most likely to criticize another depending on what triggers them the most in their own lives and this website is no exception… a successful blogger who is brave enough to share her life with readers who have the privilege to anonymously take part by reading/commenting sets herself up for harsh judgement but I for one, as a long time reader/rare commenter, would like to thank Heather for putting herself on the line for the better good…. I KNOW that she has helped and influenced a lot of people, me being one of them… I am currently having my own experience with increased mental clarity in the form of having twin girls this past summer, I have two older boys as well and, while I certainly have my moments of self doubt, there’s nothing like a life situation of any kind to kinda force you to push your own limits, make you realize what you can accomplish if you choose to, and help you decipher amongst the important things going on in your own thoughts and the “noise” that Heather speaks of… it is life changing, you better believe it, and you can only do your best and be as kind as you can along the way… thanks for writing girl, we love it 🙂

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  • Hannah M

    I did the same cleanse (fast, juice diet, intolerable, almost inhumane misery… tomato tomahto) thing a few months ago. I realized my timing could have been better as I sat at the dinner table holding my nose forcing green sludge down one gulp at a time, praying I would just go ahead and die of a heart attack and be put out of my misery, while my family inhaled my daughter’s birthday cake. I could have totally tolerated it if the drinks didn’t taste like butt hole, and if I had something to chew. Like you said, I missed the good ole fashioned feeling of chewing. I would dream about it. Good times.

Heather B. Armstrong

Hi. I’m Heather B. Armstrong, and this used to be called mommy blogging. But then they started calling it Influencer Marketing: hashtag ad, hashtag sponsored, hashtag you know you want me to slap your product on my kid and exploit her for millions and millions of dollars. That’s how this shit works. Now? Well… sit back, buckle up, and enjoy the ride.

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