And... boom
Yesterday was one of those days when the Universe wraps itself around my head and humps my skull just to show its dominance. Sort of like the times Coco climbs on top of Chuck's backside and moves her lady parts in and out, in and out, as if that would even work if things were functioning, and Chuck just stands there and lets her do it, sometimes glancing over at me as if to say, she thinks I'm buying this. She really thinks this is intimidating, and we both know that all this means is she is a total fucking nutjob.
Except, I believe the Universe very much when it tells me it is in charge. And a lot of what happened and then continued to happen yesterday falls squarely into the bag of things I will not write about on this website. And that bag is labeled PRESERVING MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS.
I think things were made worse by my mood, one of wanting to walk around shooting randomly at things that could splatter or at least topple over in a magnificent way, and I don't even believe in the right to own a gun. In the last few days I have received innumerable requests to weigh in on what is currently going on with the circus that is the Republican National Convention, and I call it a circus because I'm trying to be nice. You have to understand that my family reads this website, and in order for us to have a working relationship I have to be careful when I write about certain things. But my blood pressure is such that if I don't say a few things about this then my head may just explode, and then it'd be all their fault. And they'd go to jail. So this is how I'm rationalizing what I am about to write.
I am angry. I am infuriated. And I don't think I would be if Sarah Palin were a qualified or competent choice as McCain's running mate. But the fact, the reality is that she is not. And instead of demanding better from their party, instead of going, wait a minute, no, we deserve better than this, many Republicans are contorting themselves into a denial of reality. (please read this, it's a report from the AP, not some spooky liberal blog that wants to kill babies) And that right there is what has been going on for the last eight years.
And I am just so damn sick of it.
Any time I engage with one of my conservative friends or family members, or sometimes the conservative commenters on this website, it usually devolves into them screaming about WELFARE! and TAXES! and THE GOVERNMENT IS TAKING MY MONEY AND GIVING IT TO PEOPLE WHO DON'T WORK! And what they don't understand is that this is not the issue at all. What I and many of my more liberal friends want is to HELP people, not give them a free ride, but also not to ignore those who would benefit from us tossing them a life jacket.
Case in point: Because Leta was diagnosed with plagiocephaly when she was two months old, she cannot qualify for private insurance until she is thirteen years old. So the only insurance we can get her is high-risk insurance that costs us upwards of $300 a month. Just for her alone. And even then that insurance won't cover anything until she has reached a $3000 deductible. I am fortunate enough to have grown up in a white, middle class family who could afford to send me to college, as did my husband, and we have enough work experience to run a business that makes it so that we can afford this insurance for our daughter. We don't have to make the choice between buying food or insuring our daughter. We are really fucking lucky.
But what about the family who cannot afford that insurance for their child? The family who can barely make rent, and if they stretch the budget they can eat three meals a day all week, let's hope nothing bad happens to their kids because then they're screwed. Kids, go hug your father, he's off to one of his three jobs, none of which provide him insurance. And it's not because he's lazy or unwilling to work, it's that his family couldn't afford to send him to college, or he came from a family that didn't know they should encourage him to go to college because they were busy trying to survive. If giving up more of my paycheck could help get this family adequate healthcare, then PLEASE. TAKE MY FUCKING MONEY.
I get the feeling that people around the world are looking at this election as a gauge to see if America is finally ready to wake up and realize that we are not the only country on this planet. They are waiting to see if we are going to put yet another fundamentalist loon in charge of public and foreign policy, someone who doesn't think that global warming is in any way caused by humans, so screw the rest of you who live here on this planet, we need that cup of oil with breakfast in the morning.
To my readers who do not live in America, who are not American, please know that there are so many of us here who are disgusted with what we have let happen in the last eight years and are doing everything we can to ensure that it stops. We are just as scared as you are of those around us who have their fingers in their ears and are going LA LA LA LA LA in an attempt to convince themselves that their behavior and their policies are not in direct violation of the teachings of the God they think put them in power.
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Stellare said:
Stay calm! :-) It'll pass.
09.04.08 - 10:33 AM / 1Kelly said:
I don't even try to talk to conservative friends and family or try to broach this subject on my blog because it all makes me so angry that all I can do is sputter and froth a little at the mouth.
So I agree with you, and thanks for putting it so much more eloquently than I ever could.
09.04.08 - 10:34 AM / 2gingela5 said:
I have a feeling this is opening up a whole can of worms. I'm staying neutral and out of it!
09.04.08 - 10:34 AM / 3Daddy Scratches said:
Dear god, I just wrote about going through this with family members over the weekend. The degree to which my blue-collar, struggling, middle-class relatives have been duped into believing that the political party standing on their throats and pissing down their backs is the one they should support is *mind boggling* to me.
09.04.08 - 10:35 AM / 4Erin said:
Amen.
Afuckingmen.
09.04.08 - 10:35 AM / 5Adrienne said:
Thank you for being awesome. I keep looking at Palin like, really? that's...the best they could come up with? And I'm not a little bit offended that the Republican party seems to think I'll look at her and say "OMG, *you* have ovaries? *I* have ovaries! I should TOTALLY vote for you and that guy who was lobotomized by the Republican party two years ago in return for the CHANCE of being president!" As though, perhaps, the presence of my ovaries renders me retarded...
09.04.08 - 10:35 AM / 6Heather said:
Here, fucking, here.
From Heather in Canada
09.04.08 - 10:37 AM / 7Melissa said:
Thank you, thank you, thank you. I am one of those crazy "liberal elites" who lives inside the Beltway, and you just said most everything I feel a lot more eloquently than I have been able to lately. Mostly because all of my energy has been spent trying to restrain myself from running people in McCain-Palin shirts off the roads, and/or throwing things at my TV.
09.04.08 - 10:37 AM / 8Joanne said:
I get a little weary of one group that says that the other group is all bad. You talk to conservatives and all they care about is their MONEY and all YOU care about is HELPING PEOPLE. It's really tiresome.
09.04.08 - 10:37 AM / 9Margaret said:
Yeah...that Yahoo fact check article scared the shit out of me, too.
09.04.08 - 10:38 AM / 10Kelsey said:
THANK YOU FOR WRITING THIS! I've been reading your blog for a looooong time and never felt the need to comment. Mostly, you make me laugh and sometimes you make me proud of being a woman. But thank you for letting us know that you have been watching the convention, I've been wondering how you have felt about the RNC. It's embarassing, and I'm BARACKING MY VOTE! They have t-shirts you know. :)
09.04.08 - 10:39 AM / 11Mike Beaumont said:
Right on, Heather. Keep fighting the good fight.
09.04.08 - 10:39 AM / 12lolismum said:
Last night, I watched the Palin speech, I genuinely felt nauseated. It seemed like the convention audience had tears in their eyes as they chanted, "drill drill drill".
09.04.08 - 10:39 AM / 13Devon said:
My boyfriend's mother, an adamant McCain supporter is now voting for Obama because of Palin. That should say something to McCain and his campaign choices...
09.04.08 - 10:40 AM / 14sarah said:
Oh yes yes yes. I believe in this wholeheartedly, with fervor, gumption, and those words that mean intensely.
Please save us from the right Obama. Because the whole world thinks we are assholes, and really, it's just crazy uncle W doing all the stomping around and pissing off the party guests.
09.04.08 - 10:40 AM / 15Julien Sharp said:
Thank you, Heather, for saying on your high-trafficked blog what EVERYONE in America should be saying and thinking. The "empire" has no clothes, folks. Has. No. Clothes.
09.04.08 - 10:40 AM / 16Anonymous said:
I am sitting at my computer at 3.30am Sydney time feeding my newborn son and am suddenly so thankful that I have grown up in a world where my parents could encourage me to go to university and so did my partner, and that we can afford our son the benefits that come from living in the civilised world.
As someone who comes from the other end of the planet - I am extremely hopeful that some sense will prevail and the gun totin', backy chewin', god fearin', moose huntin' folks will be told to go back to their (many) homes and that the real, honest people of the US will get some sanity - and the rest of the world will have someone worth listening to and working with on merit rather than by default as the most 'powerful' country on earth.
If I had any faith in religion I would pray.
Go Obama - the planet is waiting.
09.04.08 - 10:40 AM / 17Michelle said:
Amen, Heather! My family is very conservative Republican. I am the polar opposite-I believe in affordable health care for everyone. Affordable day care for working families. Closing the tax loopholes for large corporations. And what is it with people who don't believe in global warming??? Anyway, we cannot discuss politics (or religion) in my family without it coming to an argument so severe that my mother has actually thrown me out of her house when I refused to agree that GWB was the second coming of Christ. Hopefully Obama will be elected and then I won't have to move to Canada.
09.04.08 - 10:40 AM / 18country girl said:
wow -- you should have so spoke at the DNC...i am calling them
09.04.08 - 10:40 AM / 19Sharon said:
I've been following the election with bated breath - and I'm Canadian.
09.04.08 - 10:41 AM / 20Libby said:
I feel the exact same way. People have been talking about Palin all day here at work, and I can't deal with it. I just have to put my headphones on. I am trying to be objective because of my job, but inside I am screaming "wake up!!"
09.04.08 - 10:42 AM / 21TED said:
I feel like this every four years, but I've learned a) not to watch the RNC and b) not to listen to the news so much. I voted in the primary, and I'll vote in the general election, but I have no faith in the American electorate, so for the sake of my blood pressure, I'm just pretending the election doesn't exist until it's time to wake up one morning and vote.
09.04.08 - 10:42 AM / 22Susanna said:
Thank you SO MUCH for taking this on. Seriously, Sarah Palin is just frightening and watching her win with no experiance or competence time and time again (I live in AK) because people look at her, but fail to listen or question her has got me pretty worked up about this election. Keep it up!
09.04.08 - 10:42 AM / 23adena said:
that final paragraph really says it all.
way to put my feelings into words.
09.04.08 - 10:42 AM / 24Grandmere said:
Thank you for saying it so much better than my anger and frustration allow me to. Yesterday I also read that she cut the education budget for children with special needs in Alaska by 62% ! I have been so angry since then that it is hard to be articulate. While I try to keep from discussing politics with some of my friends and family, I am to the point of wanting to shout at them... Wake up! Look at the world around you and tell me it is better than it as 8 years ago.
09.04.08 - 10:42 AM / 25Katherine said:
I am SO with you on all of this, though I want to explode out of my own frustration and am lucky that my family is largely on my side, and because you have to hold it in so much more frequently I want to say, "Would it be awkward if I offered you a hug?" Except that wouldn't help (and not because I am a stranger and that it is creepy) but because this week has shown that whiskey is a much more effective means of surviving the RNC, and clearly, the next few months. I am a glutton for self-punishment and have watched all of it that I can stand (namely Palin's speeches) and have compared "the first half" (pre-cocktail) and "the second half" (with cocktail). Which was healthier for my sanity? I think you know. :)
09.04.08 - 10:43 AM / 26Kirsten said:
I wholeheartedly agree, thanks for sharing the post with us...and what is so damn bad about WANTING TO HELP people I wonder aloud, WHY NOT?!
09.04.08 - 10:43 AM / 27Marty said:
THANK YOU! You're so much more eloquent than I am. I almost engaged a TOTAL STRANGER today at the farmer's market because he was praising Palin to another customer for her "strong speech" and for being SO ready to be president. Shudder. We are all going to have to take many deep breaths in the weeks to come. Go Obama!
09.04.08 - 10:43 AM / 28[michele] said:
All I can say is Amen sistah, ditto, ITA. And thank you for writing it. :)
09.04.08 - 10:44 AM / 29Amy J said:
Don't stay calm. Stay mad as hell and fight.
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